God’s been showing me through the book Counterfeit Gods by Tim Keller. In his chapter on money, he writes,
As a pastor I’ve had people come to me to confess that they struggle with almost every kind of sin. Almost. I cannot recall anyone ever coming to me and saying, “I spend too much money on myself. I think my greedy lust for money is harming my family, my soul, and people around me.” Greed hides itself from the victim. The money god’s modus operandi includes blindness to your own heart.
At first I thought, “What?! Me? I don’t have a problem with greed! I’m the girl who still doesn’t have an iPod (much less an iPhone) and would rather not get a second car.”
As I read on, however, God has been showing me otherwise.
I could list a dozen examples, but I’ll just share about one of the first times God confronted me with this problem after we got married.
It was Luke’s birthday. We were driving home from Chicago, and I was at the wheel. Our little 4-cylinder Nissan had a hard time climbing the hills of Missouri. To help it along, I would speed down one hill to make it to the top of the next.
Things were going swimmingly until I found a cop waiting at the top of one of those hills. I hit the brakes, but it was too late. I saw lights flashing behind me, so I pulled over and got my first speeding ticket.
Luke never blamed me. He never told me that I should have been more cautious. He never berated me for wasting his hard-earned money.
But I couldn’t forgive myself. Why? Not so much because I had broken the law, but because I got caught and the penalty was going to put a dent in our savings.
Perhaps you think this is no big deal, but it is to God. He’s using this book to expose more than the god of greed in my life.
So what am I going to do about it? There’s not much I can do except confess my sin and let God replace those gods with Himself.
I challenge you to read this book too—but be prepared to take a good hard uncomfortable look at your heart.